When you dont get what you want

There are times when what you want the most does not happen and you detach yourself from everything possible, you simply want to be left alone because your nowhere close to what you actually want.Support and reassurances help to a little extent,but the void which you desperately wish to fill is still empty and makes no progress whatsoever .You end up blaming yourself for the things that are in the course of action in spite of knowing that your to helpless to do anything.hopelessness,frustration,anger,solitude,irritation and anything negative you name it and its on the list are the only things that walk alongside you. you hate their presence but you also know that their the only things that are left to remind you of what you want the most.Everything else seems so trivial,mindless and narrow when your constantly reminded of that , you want to put it aside but the thought of it effortlessly creeps back into you.it portrays yourself as a loser which you simply detest to accept.life becomes more melodramatic,leading to embarrassments.now no amount of venting helps and all you have to do is accept things the way they are and carry on with life carrying the heavy burden which could sink you from inside.

Long time!

Its been ages since i posted something

off late there are a lot of brain storming sessions going on inside my head and each idea is waiting to be put up only the right words dont aid in the process

the words would help am sure

and i would come with many as well

till then am off to think

love all!{ except the ones you hate;)}

TURN OFFS

Now there is this blank in ur orkut profile which asks you to mention your turn offs trust me i have so much that i used all the tiny space which orkut provided me cramming it with things that i despise ,things i loathe,things that just tick me in short things that turn me off and orkut has no more of it left so here i am.Before i go any further i would like to mention this one is going to be a little negative and read on if you can stand by the things which pisses me off....

#BACK BITING:-This is something which you, me or everyone has faced.if there is something which someone has a problem about its always better to confront to the person concerened instead of making a big deal about it going around and bitching stuff .I dont understand what kind of pleasure or fulfillment people beget from back biting to me those who indulge in it are a whole bunch of cowards and losers so just BUZZ OFF!!!

#DOMINATING:-This is a trait i come across so often although personally i have not experienced it much. well, at times my brother dominates me but thats what these silly older siblings do,they just claim it to be some kind of birth right!!otherwise i cant stand if there is domination among friends or most of all a commitment because there needs to be a equal amount expression from both sides and not just one side if it goes on then there would come a time when the submissive person could rage up beyond imagination and create a havoc to the relationship itself!certainly bad!!

#SMOKING:- I simply detest it for the very fact it ruins your health.its your body something that you have all rights to say "its mine".if you have that right then you have the responsibility of taking good care of it.smoking smokes this whole theory away. i have had enough arguments and rows with some of my friends who smoke.Many presume smoking to be cool but whats cool now is going to affect you in the long run. May be its hard to quit but if you really want to you sure can quit! why ruin something good and intact given to u?

#SPITTING ON THE ROAD:-its simply yuck!!! its the most annoying thing for me. i just hate to write about it because i am forced to run through instances of me encountering people spitting on the road(especially the ones who chew paan!)in my mind...so lets this out because it makes me want to puke and yeah to sum it up i hate people who spit on the roads... Dirty!!

#PROMISE BREAKERS:- If you cant keep up to your word dont you give it away because its the basis on which people place a trust on you and when the word is not kept the trust is eventually broken! trust is the ultimatum of any relationship and there is no point whatsoever when it is broken!!

#SELFISHNESS:- Think about yourself!good!but when you tend to overdo it you become selfish...Every human being does it some point or other but let it not imbibe in you as you are not what you are if not for the people around you!!keep in mind others as well!!!

#POSSESSIVNESS:- this term is used to determine the degree of love a person has for someone but i think this many a times invades ones space there are a million other ways where you can show your love not essential that you have to be a possessive person to express your love. if the person concerened accepts your way of showin love then good for you but if he or she doesnt then its high time you work hard to learn to give them their space placing trust upon them!they might love you more for being understanding and not invading in their space!

#DESPERATE PEOPLE:- there are various number of people craving for something or the other some for money, attention, love etc...you dont have to be desperate..keep in mind everything is going to happen in the right time and if something has to happen it will definately happen .instead of craving and brooding for somethin you might as well take the right measure to work on it see what you can do about it if there is nothing you can do about then just move on...brooding and craving makes you look more like a loser!!!

#HANGING UP THE PHONE ON ME:- HULLO!!!AM STILL TALKING!!you cant let me go without actually allowing me to complete what am about to say...irritates me like hell!!and if you hang up the phone on me it does not mean you are right and i am wrong... hmph!!!

#HYPOCRITES:-Preach only what you can practice!!if not just shut up!!you ll gain respect if you live upto your standards and principles but if you go around bragging about principles that you hardly follow then you are only making big fool out of yourself!!

#TAKING PEOPLE FOR GRANTED:-the pain of it would be understood only when someone does that upon you this more an advice to people who are being taken for granted ,Never make someone a priority in your life when your only an option in theirs and people treat you the you let them treat you(valuble advice given to me by sowmi)!!put your foot down if you think you are not being treated upto your expectations!!

#COMPLAINING:- this is one of my oldest turn off which i think began since schooling days where there would be a geek next to me who would be meticulous in everything he or she did and would complain about me to the teacher for he or she would shine bright in elation and i would get my teachers piece of mind for i was a very bad student!!!hate you geeks!!!seems funny now though...not so funny when i come across someone like this in college!!!hate you still!!

#SARCASM:- say it out straight rather then sucking the soul out of the person!!seriously sarcasm literally does that!!the person who you are being sarcastic with could be worse than you if he gets the opportune moment!!sarcasm is nowhere close to the solution!!

#BAD LISTENERS:- hold on!!!you can talk after am done with mine!!!i feel like saying stop yapping n listen for once....most of the times bad listners make no sense of what they speak as well makin them good at nothing!!listening is as good as a skill as communicating. costs nothing but a moment of your time and a little of your patience!!

#JEALOUSY:- if its good compliment!!you ll be loved for it... dont burn with jealousy for its going to take you nowhere ...you end up throwin yourself in a bad light...think good and be good!everybody gets what they deserve so your jealousy is going to spoil only your peace!!

#HARSH WORDS:- think twice before you act or speak..your anger cannot hurt another persons feeling...leaves lasting impressions on the affected person and the relationship itself...

#SHOW OFFS:- ok you have it now what!??stop bragging and boasting.!modesty always takes you to places...your efficiency need not be proven by your words but by your actions!

so well, these are certain traits among people which i cant bear to see it was actually good venting it all out...its a hard thing to encounter this i defiantely wont get used to any of it i simply cant!!!all i can do is vent n ya i did it!Try hard not to turn someone off!!

TO THE DANCER

The D day for one of my closest and oldest friend, I know this lass since the day I remember, has played an integral role in my life, ask anyone you know and they would identify her as “Oh!!Gayathri???the dancer???”Yeah, such was her identity…she is indeed the greatest dancers who would surely make it big in the days to come by. As long as I remember she has been showing a great interest in dance, for she was enrolled in her dance class at the tender age of five, a master in all the nuances and intricacies of "bharatnatyam",she is just so professional. With a profound interest in the art she has the fire and passion beneath that ever giggly and charming face.

Her “arangetram” was something I longed to see the most, for the talent and interest she possesses she should have done it like ages back but this girl took all the time to become a master in it and she really did prove herself today. She is blessed with such innate grace and elegance that it was such a beauiful experience watching her perform .She sizzled, made the audience smile, left them with Goosebumps, carried them away with her beautiful expressions, such emotions my god.!!!takes you to another world….

Since we were in the same class I have seen her performing a numerous times, but the first time she left me stunned was during a performance at a temple simply amazing she was it was a number which expressed Lord Shivas moods of peace and anger ,she danced so well that people who were praying left their prayers mid way to watch the performance, the whole temple witnessed her dance with such rapturous attention and that day I knew she would surely create ripples with this profound talent of hers. That performance is still etched in my heart.

Today was the most awaited day, the day she proved her true mettle and was rewarded for the same, the day she made her parents so proud of her, the day she captured all the attention,the day she left us all awestruck,and the day she grew up as the most beautiful dancer who has a very bright future!!!!gayu ma your dedication and practice has been given you more than you can ask for!!your such an inspiration!!!!All the very best dear!!!!CONGRATS on todays heart warming performance!!!!Commendable!!!!Waiting to see a lot more from you!!!Way to go girl!!!Am soooo proud of you!!!

A PEEP FROM THE COCOON

A couple of weeks back one of my favorite lecturers at college was furious on us for being very irresponsible and she was giving us her peace of her mind when she said “Girls your secure in a cocoon, You just don’t know the outside world” This struck me hard and put me through a lot of introspection, as a sensitive person even the slightest deviation from the normal affects me a lot, I realized how much this sensitivity would influence my sphere of happiness me in the long run.
I thought about what kind of heaven I am in and that’s when I realized I have more than I can actually ask for, parents who toil hard to see me high in life, a sweet brother with bounteous affection, and most of all my own dear friends who stand by me no matter what!! Now you would be wondering “what’s there in it to rant about so much??its something everyone has!!”,there is!!,this is more than what you actually need, just that ,at times we fail to see what’s there so close to us and seek for happiness and joy elsewhere, may be it would take a lot of time among many of us to get the right sense of this because as my madam said we are in a cocoon and we have never ventured outside the real world filled with, what not?!
The recent flick "Slum dog Millionaire" is a perfect example, take the three little kids who fall a wrath to the societies malicious face, and take us how care free and happy we were when we were little kids ,don’t you think we need to be grateful for what we have now?? There are loads of little children whose parents sell them for a meager 20,000Rs,who are being sold to pimps by their own relatives, who are being sent to beg on the streets for their mere existence, who have never stepped into a school, who sleep every night without a roof on top of their head, who wake up every morning happy that they are still alive,and a lot more. Next time you go too a restaurant see the little kid who cleans your table, where are his dreams and where is he?
It would take a really long time to change the conditions of the deprived thousands meanwhile we can take a time for ourselves to feel lucky for what we have. Be thankful to the people around us, who live to see us happy. It doesn’t mean we lead a very happy go lucky life! I agree we do have enough problems in our kit but we have something that all these kids don’t have-love, warmth and security, given by those who built the cocoon around us. Even if one of this at loss our lives would become haywire, hard to even imagine. Just be thankful for what we have, for today’s world is at the loss of gratitude!!!grateful to you people!!!love!!!

NEED TO FILL..

Am so irregular when it comes to blogging,not that am busy all day just that am too lazy or yeah i would most of the time be so pre-occupied ,dreaming!!!At the dawn of this year i decided to put up four posts a month which means a-post-a-week but only now i realised its the last day of this month and i have put just one post lecturing about not to use sms language while blogging,hope the post after this does not serve a long break like this one did....No use rambling about my inconsistent writing and that am not making use of the web which has provided me with an exclusive page,to vent out all that i have...n meanwhile there have been quiet a number of people who gave me some valuble compliments (thanks for the encouragement) and a little bit of negative comments(not that i have very little flaws just that those who have given their valuble comments were being sweet enough to encourage the flaws off me) though i dont write much i constantly follow others blog,some of friends and others just random and to all you people thank you for sharing your precious knowledge,trivia,ideas,feelings, n more.....again i hope to keep up my word of writing regularly...thats all for now....this makes it two posts a month now!!happy writing!!!!

Not so cool!!!

Off late I have been into blogging, of course not posting much but reading what others have to say. Awesome I must say. There are so many things I have learnt from reading others blog. This is a good trend and I am proud to be a part of it, but even as I am writing this post am unable to avoid this so called SMS language. You have short forms for anything and everything. All my previous posts in this blog is enriched with the SMS lingo, after writing each and every post (I talk as if I write ten posts a day!!! Please don’t mind!!!) I show it to my mom and dad, trust me they could not understand one bit of what I tried to say!!! That’s when I thought well I need to change big time!!!

I recently came across my friends post where she too has mentioned about this hard-to-let-go habit, usage of SMS lingo…oops sorry “language”….before I go any further I would like to halt here for a moment and convey to the readers that I have scrolled this very page which so far consist of merely five or six lines, nearly ten times to check if I have been using the short and sweet way of expressing stuff, and yes I have! For nearly every word so far I have been missing out “G’S” in words like blogging, reading, writing, anything, everything, using etc. etc.!!! sorry dear”G”. It’s not just with “G”. It holds good for words like “have”, “because” and “and” which are very precisely denoted as “ve” “cos” and “n” respectively! It’s still difficult, more than “difficult”, the word “challenging” would be apt!! Indeed a challenge!!

This shows how much we wreck the beautiful language…the blood of Chaucer and Shakespeare would boil if they get to see the present trend of writing. Writing as far as I know is not what many have a flair for, those who, ought to essentially hold on with the ancient and proper style of writing with all the letters in the right place. It’s true that every blogger would not halt like me to scroll back to see if they are going on with the correct usage of language!!! When I began to write this post it was a challenge, now am quiet aware and I feel it’s not that hard! So face the challenge!!! let it not imbibe into your souls, language has it own beauty and editing words to our convenience only ruins it all the more!!!

There have been times where I used to miss out “G’s” and use “N’s” instead of “and” in my exam papers…shame on a literature student! So now I have decided to change, write things in the proper way without imposing any harm to the language! This is not applicable during conversations through instant messenger or SMS (cummon!!tht wud be soooo diffclt!!!). I have taken lots of pains to write this little post just to convey that this new way of writing is definately not so cool!! Bloggers, try hard not to brutally murder the language in your blogs!!! Happy writing!!!