When you dont get what you want

There are times when what you want the most does not happen and you detach yourself from everything possible, you simply want to be left alone because your nowhere close to what you actually want.Support and reassurances help to a little extent,but the void which you desperately wish to fill is still empty and makes no progress whatsoever .You end up blaming yourself for the things that are in the course of action in spite of knowing that your to helpless to do anything.hopelessness,frustration,anger,solitude,irritation and anything negative you name it and its on the list are the only things that walk alongside you. you hate their presence but you also know that their the only things that are left to remind you of what you want the most.Everything else seems so trivial,mindless and narrow when your constantly reminded of that , you want to put it aside but the thought of it effortlessly creeps back into you.it portrays yourself as a loser which you simply detest to accept.life becomes more melodramatic,leading to embarrassments.now no amount of venting helps and all you have to do is accept things the way they are and carry on with life carrying the heavy burden which could sink you from inside.